I've been looking for a ring though. Something that for me would be the equivalent of a CTR ring, without actually being a CTR ring. I applaud those who wear something CTR and display it proudly, but for something like that I'd rather be a little more selective over the people who know what it means.
I really like handmade stuff, so I've been looking through Etsy for something simple. I'd like something that will go with everything, and that is relatively simple, though there are a few that I've been looking at that are more in the "fun" category than "simple."
I'm looking forward to picking my favorite, and then purchasing it with my paycheck next week!
I finally got a real question from the missionaries about getting baptized tonight. I'm really not ready to go there right now. It's not just school, I've got a lot going on in my head that I'm trying to sort out and I'm not sure that I want to really go into something like getting baptized while not entirely sure of some things.
Elder Buhler asked tonight if I'd felt The Spirit during the cottage meeting I attended, and I definitely did. He then spoke about how that feeling is really kind of the clincher in figuring things out. I'm not sure that I fully agree though. I definitely feel The Spirit at times, but that doesn't really mean that I'm so sure of this being the right path for me. Or even that I'm totally sure that The Book of Mormon is Another Testament of Jesus Christ.
Right now I think that those things are true, but I'm not yet at a point that I know or fully believe that they are. So I want to take more time with this. Especially since I haven't even really told my family about my plans. I know that I'll be facing some level of opposition there, and I need to handle that before being ready.
I also have a few certain friends whom I would like to be there if I do decide to get baptized, and I don't know if that's really a realistic thing to want. So I need to have a better understanding of what this all means to me without the friends involved before I cross that line.
This was supposed to be a lot more up-beat than I feel it has turned out! So just focus on the pretty rings!
3 comments:
i have loved that arrow ring for a very long time, so i am way biased towards it. i also really like the second one too, tho. and the knot is so cute and delicate! so hard!
additionally, i totally understand the wanting to be sure. not just inside you, but enough to stand by it in the face of dissenting opinions... especially those of your family.
also, you rule. you have so much going on and still are looking to better yourself in all these different ways. it makes me happy to be a part, even from far away. :)
I like the idea of getting a "CTR" ring that is significant to you, but not widely recognizable. That moss ring is awesome and completely unique.
I, too, admire you for your obviously well-thought out stance on baptism. For sure it is a difficult decision - a huge life-change even - and with something like that, it is good to be absolutely certain that it's what you want and is a decision you can stand behind when things get tough.
On the other hand, however, when I am also waiting on making a decision because I want to be so sure, it helps me to remember John 7:17 which reads, "If any man will DO his will, he shall know of the doctrine, whether it be of God, or whether I speak of myself" (emphasis added). Sometimes we have to do before we feel the confirmation of knowing. I hope that doesn't come across as preachy or anything...just another perspective. It certainly seems that you already trying things out by "doing," and you should take as much time as you need.
I think it's totally fair for you to want to have friends come if and when you get baptized. Whenever we make a big decision like that in life, we want our friends and family to be there to show their support.
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